REALLY tomorrow technically is the start of week 3 so I waited my 2 weeks but who is looking to justify their bending of the rules? Oh wait, that would be me!
So I just got my results about 5 minutes ago but the test really had my verdict in the first minute. The final 2 minutes were just to torture me.
Feeling kinda disappointed - which seems like a realistic reaction. On a positive note, now I don't have to worry about being tired during the marathon that the holidays are. Hmm... Not sure that actually makes me feel any better.
Feel like this time it is less about trying to find the silver lining and more about just counting my many many blessings.... You all know who you are!
Recently I met someone who is my quadfecta of smart, funny, interesting, and kind AND he is beyond supportive of everything I am doing. (I would go on but if he is reading this I don't want him to get too big of a head) Yet another blessing. Who knows where it will go but I am excited to see.
As for why this wasn't my cycle, I am thinking that...
- the universe didn't want to give ME a big head by giving me too much goodness at one time
- the universe is just working to spread out life's amazing moments
- or maybe the astrologer was wrong and 5 really is my lucky number
Ultimately, I am just here for the ride so it seems. And although I am very impatient, I am very excited to see how my life develops.
I have one more cycle with the IUI and then I start looking into possible next steps like IVF or maybe even adoption. I am going to take December off because of the craziness that is the holiday season with the plan to have January be my 5th and final IUI. (Of note, it is the final because I am only allowed 3 cycles with the fertility drugs and this will be my 3rd after 2 natural cycles.)
My more immediate plan is to pee on a second stick tomorrow and just skip the blood test. This also means I can stop with the progesterone which has me feeling like those 10 pounds I lost didn't get lost. Ohh! And this means I have another month to take care of me and get closer to my weight loss goals...but starting after I have some pie for breakfast and maybe lunch.
I am ok. Not my best. But I am ok. I can already feel your warm hugs and support without any of you saying a word! So appreciative of that! No words to express.
If I do not speak with ya'll till after the holidays, wishing you all much love, joy, and laughter this season! Merry Christmas and a most joyous New Year!
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